It’s been a long, hard road, but you’ve finally discovered the thing that’s been holding you back.
It could be a belief, a fear, a story, or a memory. Some little shard of pain that you can finally see has been stuck in your heart and mucking up the works.
You figured it out. And, to the best of your understanding, you’ve removed it.
You’ve cleansed, prayed, meditated, journaled, released, allowed, cried, and healed.
You’ve never been more ready to move on with this new clarity and strength. You know that tomorrow is going to be an amazing day. Nothing can stop you.
And then tomorrow comes, and you’re miserable. You drag your heels, the to-do list remains untouched, the creativity doesn’t flow, and all those good feelings you were riding so high on the other day are nowhere to be found.
What in the actual hell is going on here?
Does this sound familiar?
There’s a reason this is happening, and it’s not because you went about everything all wrong, or you didn’t really heal yourself.
It’s because beliefs, fears, stories, and memories tend to become anchored in our egos and our personalities. We let these things define us, and so when we finally come to the understanding that those pieces were created, and can be just as easily uncreated, and we discard them, of course that energy flies back around and hits us like a boomerang. Sometimes we release a part of our identities that no longer serve us, and that piece goes gently into the good night.
Sometimes it comes back to us, kicking and screaming.
The first thing you can do to get back on track is acknowledge that you’re not failing in embodying your newly created self. It’s not that you’re unchangeable. It’s that the skin you’ve tried to shed still looks and feels like your skin. The parts of us we’re ready to let go become our shadows, and follow us around…just in case we change our mind.
When you think of it like that, it’s kind of sweet, right?
But I bet you don’t want to live with those shadows, or to feel the hangover of energy release every time you try to make strides towards your freedom.
So here’s the second thing you can do: after you realize the low feelings, the crankiness, and the procrastination are mere echoes of the life you’re shedding, do something simple to reaffirm your choice.
Take a shower, and tell yourself - I really am exactly who I say I’ll be.
Sage your space, and say - echoes, shadows, and old energy are not what my life is built on.
Sit outside and listen - the earth and its creatures know who you really are, and they sing to support you.
Wash your hands. Drink some water. Don’t listen for a second to the voice that says “You didn’t really change. How silly that you thought you could snap your fingers and fix this.”
That voice is what you’ve left behind. Of course it’s going to sulk.
Chin up. Walk on. Declare who you’ve decided to be, and then be.