First, a little story about Jurassic World.
Me, my husband, my mother, and my brother went out on a recent Saturday evening to see this movie. We were all very excited. So excited, in fact, that we made sure to get to the theater extra early to get in line. It being a new release, a pretty popular one at that, and an 8pm showing on a Saturday night - we thought the chances were pretty good that the show would be sold out and it would be hard to get seats.
Fortunately, we were the first ones there! So we got on line first. While we're sitting there, waiting for my mother to come back from concessions, and slowly watching people trickle in to join our line, I remark to my husband how much I hate being on lines.
"I don't know what it is, but this makes me so anxious!" I whined.
"Why are you anxious?" He asked.
"I don't know! If I knew, then I'd do something about it!" I replied, laughing but annoyed with myself at the same time. Why was I so anxious!? It wasn't that there were a lot of people around, though, that's often part of it. The more people there are just milling around in proximity to me, the harder it is to manage energetically. But I knew it was more than that. So I gave it a thought. It didn't actually take me very long to pinpoint the problem, and to realize that there was a pattern here. I got this way whenever we had to wait in line for something.
"It's the line. It's the fact that we're on a line and I have this irrational fear that someone is going to spit in the face of order and cut in front, or that when it's time to go into the theater, there will be a rush and-"
I couldn't finish my sentence. I had an epiphany.
See, with a little bit of effort and math, you can calculate your Tarot Birth Card. It's kind of like an astrological sign - lots of people have the same sign, or card, and it tells you something about who you are as a person.
Mine is The Emperor.
If there is one card in the entirety of the Major Arcana that I do not like, it's The Emperor. When I first found out that this was my card, I cringed.
Ugh. Why couldn't I be The Lovers? Or The Empress? Those cards I could relate to, but, The Emperor?
Order. Logic. Structure. Authority. BLEGH. No thanks, that's not me.
Except it is. It really is. There I was, first in line to see Jurassic World, fretting over whether people would uphold common decency and adhere to polite social structures. Every time someone new went to join the line, and they lingered close to us before going back, I would have a minor internal conniption.
My "Emperor" side had another opportunity that night to fly it's authority-flag when we sat down, and I noticed that a person in front of us was vaping. I held myself back from confronting the man, and making a scene.
Doesn't he know that you can't smoke inside? And vaping isn't considered safe? That is so rude. If he does it again so help me-...
In spiritual work, it is often said that the ideas, concepts, things that you are repulsed by - there's a reason. They probably resonate with you on a level that begs closer examination.
More and more I find this to be true. Slowly, I think I'm coming to terms with my "Emperor" side since that epiphany in the movie theater.
If you want to find out your primary Birth Tarot Card, try this calculator.
If you want your primary and secondary, try this site.
Do they resonate with you? Do you hate the result? Both reactions are telling.