This card has been stalking me and my clients for the last month. In every instance it has meant something a little bit different, but its prominence tells me that there’s more to this card than timely and appropriate keywords.
In mediumship, the reader very often needs the messages being delivered as much as the client. This happens with tarot, too. So when I see a card in my own readings appearing as often for me as it does for various clients, I pay attention.
Circinus and Crux. The compass, and the cross.
With a compass we can draw a perfect circle. If you could use a compass to draw circles within your life, you might circumscribe your dreams so that you could focus on them, or corral all your failures and fears into one place so that they might be pushed away, forgotten.
The cross is a loaded symbol. It is at once a symbol of unity, and structure, but also faith – as the guidebook notes it is an ancient human symbol, permeating a variety of cultures and beliefs.
It struck me the other day that we’re awfully close to the end of 2015.
In my mind every day is the start of a new year. But I’m not one to shrug off the incredible symbolism wrapped up in the close of the calendar year, so let’s give December 31, 2015, and January 1, 2016 their proper due.
In the Cosmos Tarot this card is the 10th in the suit of Earth, putting it very near the end of the element’s cycle.
Let’s redefine perfect.
What was perfect this year? Before you answer, I want to redefine perfect. A perfect day is not one during which nothing bad happens. It’s one where even if something “bad” happens, you are alright. I’ll give you an example. My husband and I went to a wedding this past summer, and we had gone on this trip with the intention that it was going to be amazing. It was going to be –perfect-.
Well, on the way to the church to catch the ceremony our car ran out of gas.
Seriously. No joke. We managed to pull into a car detailing parking lot only to find that the nearest gas station was several miles away. I was wearing heels. It was hot. We were dressed to the nines…that walk wasn’t going to happen. We figured it would be faster to call triple A.
We watched the minutes tick by: Oh, the ceremony is starting right now. Yikes.
And eventually the triple A guy came with enough gas to fill our tank completely. We got a free tank of gas (still thanking Spirit for that one) and we made it to the church in time to see them kiss, and then walk down the aisle and out of the church.
I’m going to be honest with you – traditional wedding ceremonies kill me. If I had to come up with a perfect way to attend a wedding, it would be to be there for the kiss, and to see them walking back down the aisle as a couple, happy, glowing, with everyone cheering. That’s what I’m there for!
So yeah, we ran out of gas in a strange city, just minutes before we had to be at a wedding.
But it was perfect.
When you look back on your year, if you can’t find how things were perfect even when they were unexpected, then you may want to do some redefining of your own. Going forward, you can find perfection in seemingly unfortunate moments.
I think we are meant to remember that perfection is what you make of it. This angel has all these bandages…but is she not perfect?
What is complete in your life? I’m not asking what is finished, never to be touched again, but what has come full circle and to a place of completion? Whatever it is, I think we’re being asked to remember that even when something is “complete” it is still a part of everything else. It will leave an indelible mark on what comes later. There is continuity in completion, as counterintuitive as that sounds.
I want you to draw yourself a circle on a large-ish sheet of paper, 8.5 x 11 works well.
Inside of this circle goes all of the things in your life that are realized, or in progress. Your family, creativity, love, health, shelter, spiritual practice, everything – anything.
Outside of the circle is everything that you want, but which hasn’t yet been realized. Think of it like your wishlist. Children, to write that book, make that sale, teach that class, take that trip, whatever your heart desires.
That looks pretty icky, right? Here in the circle you have what you have, and maybe you think it looks sparse in there, but hopefully you’ve filled it up real good with all the wonderful things in your life. And outside of that circle is the seemingly unobtainable. Those are your goals, and dreams, and right now they’re just not a part of your life.
You can change that.
Draw a line from something on the outside of that circle to something inside that’s going to help you do that. You’ll find that things you want have multiple ropes ready to pull them into your circle! What’s going to help you take that vacation this year? Your job, your family, your partner, and probably much more.
The whole point of this exercise is to help you see the continuity in your life, and how completion is more like a winding spiral staircase than a closed circle. One step leads to another. Your creativity leads to writing a poem, leads to confidence, leads to you creating an anthology.
Are you ready for 2016? I bet you’re better prepared than you realized.
P.S. The beautiful card pictured above was illustrated by Phoenix Chan for the Cosmos Tarot and Oracle. I love this deck, despite some issues I have with it, and highly recommend it for anyone who loves oracle decks.