I have long been fascinated by the moon. I know I'm not the only one.
When I was a kid, I remember that one night in the summer there was a blackout. Without the A/C, it got so hot that I couldn't sleep. So I got up.
I walked outside to the backyard and out onto the flagstone patio where there was at least a breeze. I remember looking up at the moon, hung high over the woods behind our house, and thinking that it was bigger than anything I've ever seen in the sky. I don't know how long I stood out there, hypnotized, but I felt as if I was out there all night. Something shifted for me spiritually in those moments. When I think of the moon now, that's how I remember it. Huge and whispering.
My memory has the qualities of a fever dream - but it definitely wasn't a dream. Even though I know that the moon couldn't really have been as big as I remembered, and there's no way I stood outside all night, l hold on to that memory because it feels more than real.
With this year being such a significant one astrologically, with so many extraordinary moon events, I've had quite a lot of time to reflect on my relationship with our Earth's partner.
One thing I realized was a little upsetting. The full moon does a number on me. On the day before, the day of, and the day after, I am on edge, knocked out, and then convalescent. Emotions run high and fatigue rushes in. Why?
Barring the scientific debate (they can't make up their minds anyway), the moon is an energetic powerhouse like any other celestial body. People with a developed clairsentience (empathy, sensitivity to emotions, people, weather, energies in general) may find that they too have a tough time with the changing moon cycles.
In tarot, the Moon is a symbol of illusion, fear, and the subconscious. It's a shadowy counterpart to our bright Sun. When it's closer to us, and transforming sunlight into a ghostly reflection, we get a heavy dose of that energy.
Every month when the moon is full we have an opportunity to harness some of that darker light in order to illuminate our shadow selves. For those of us invested in a spiritual journey, it's a fantastic opportunity. It can also be pretty tough.
If you too are sensitive to the full moon, here's what I recommend:
- Give yourself a break. Don't fight it. It's okay to feel low and move slowly every now and then.
- Drink water. (Yes, this is my advice for everything but that's because IT'S GOOD ADVICE.)
- And if you want to take advantage of the energy, and propel yourself along your chosen spiritual path, look into shadow work.
We're here to learn, and one way to do that is to take a moment away from building up your best qualities, and instead turn to the darker ones. Look at how you have been fearful, selfish, angry, sad, or hurt. Use a deck of cards or some other form of divination to probe those shadows. You might be surprised at what you can come to terms with and begin to accept.
(Shadow work is a really big subject, so I'm really only pointing towards the surface in this post, but I'd be remiss to leave it out when talking about the moon.)
Illusions, fears, and our subconscious are often neglected when we talk about being more spiritual. We tend to focus on joy, creation, high vibration emotions and energies. But I think that's why we were gifted with the Moon. So that at least once a month we'd be reminded that our shadows aren't going anywhere - not even once the sun has set.